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8.15.2010

LIFE'S A SWEET RIDE - damn it!

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. 
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to go through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.  Then life would begin. 
At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."      - Father Alfred D'Souza 


My latest obstacle is how to start a new life in the middle of my forties.  I don't mean change my hairstyle, decide that I want to go from an A cup to a C cup (large breasts are highly overrated!), learn the art of belly dancing or boat down the Amazon.  Single in your forties after a quarter of a century of marriage...that's where my ride took me.  Everything is new, both exhilarating and sometimes big - - grocery shopping for only things I like, sleeping in a bed alone diagonally, eating when & what you want, cleaning up after just yourself, playing my kind of music loudly, being responsible to only yourself, wondering if you'll ever have sex again and realizing you actually are glad you don't have to buy clothes for your husband any more.   Day one alone I looked in the mirror completely naked and said, "You are a beautiful, smart, original, borderline irreverent woman - you will be fine."  -- after which I took a step closer to the mirror and realized up close the "beautiful" part could very well be subjective:)  








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